THE STORY OF ALICE IN WONDERLAND IS AN UNDERSTANDING OF SELF IDENTITY. SOME VIEW IT AS A METAPHOR FOR GROWING UP. THE STORY CAN LEAD INTO MANY INTERPRETATIONS OF THE SELF BUT I CHOOSE TO DRAW EIGHT CARDS AND PROVIDE AN EXPLANATION OF EACH CARDS MEANING AND HOW I RELATE TO ITS MESSAGE AND WHAT I'VE LEARNED OF MYSELF. SOMETIMES AS PEOPLE WE ACT OUT AND SOMETIMES WE DO THINGS WE SHOULDN'T DO AND HURT OURSELVES AND OTHERS. MANY OF OUR BEHAVIORS COULD BE PREVENTED IF THE SOCIETY WE LIVE IN WASN'T SO DAMAGING TO THE HUMAN SOUL. THE MATERIAL WORLD IS A LIE, ITS A SET UP TO WATCH US FALL, BUT IF YOU CAN UNDERSTAND THE EXPLANATIONS I PROVIDE WILL HELP YOU TO REFLECT YOUR OWN CHOICES IN LIFE AND IN RETURN LEARN HOW TO LOVE YOURSELF FIRST AS A YOUNG PERSON. HOPEFULLY THIS MESSAGE WILL PREVENT UNFORTUNATE CIRCUMSTANCES FROM HAPPENING TO YOU AND IN RETURN YOU WILL MAKE WISER CHOICES IN YOUR OWN LIFE. OFCOURSE YOU WILL MAKE MISTAKES EVERYONE DOES AND ITS IMPORTANT TO LEARN FROM HUMAN ERROR, BUT IF YOU CAN UNDERSTAND CERTAIN ASPECTS OF LIFE, OF SOCIETY AND WHAT YOUR LIFE MEANS TO YOU, YOUR ETHICS, YOUR HUMAN VALUE, YOUR SELF RESPECT AND RESPECT FOR PEOPLE AROUND YOU, CONSCIOUSNESS. THIS MIGHT HELP YOU OR ANYONE FROM POSSIBLE SUICIDE ATTEMPTS, STARVING YOURSELF, CUTTING YOURSELF, DRUG ADDICTION OR WANTING TO HURT SOMEONE ELSE. THIS WILL BE THE STARTING POINT OF YOUR REALIZATION AND HUMAN WORTH. 

YOUR SELF WORTH AT A YOUNG AGE IS VITAL TO LIVE A BETTER LIFE AS YOU GROW OLDER, GROW UP AND LEARN TO COPE WHEN HORRIBLE SITUATIONS GO WRONG. THE MOST HIGHLY INSECURE PEOPLE ARE THE ONES WHO COMPLAIN THE MOST AND WILL BRAG OF HOW THEY PLAY LIFE SAFE. I DONT AGREE WITH THIS MINDSET BECAUSE YOU WILL NEVER GROW UP OR LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKES IF YOU THINK THIS WAY. ITS THEIR FEAR SURFACING IS THE REASON FOR THIS MINDSET. ITS DIFFICULT TO EVALUATE A SITUATION AND KNOW THE RIGHT DECISION TO MAKE BECAUSE WHEN WE ARE YOUNG WE DON'T KNOW ENOUGH AND HAVE NO VOICE BUT LOOK AROUND AND ASK YOURSELF WHAT IS WRONG WITH SOCIETY AND WHY ARE THESE CORPORATIONS OUT TO GET US? MANY PEOPLE WILL ARGUE THAT IS NOT TRUE BECAUSE OF THE MEDIA INFORMING US. NO THE MEDIA IS BOUGHT AND CONTROLLED LIKE A COMMON WHORE AND MISLEADS US. THOSE NEWS REPORTERS DONT REPORT THE TRUTH THEY ARE TOLD WHAT TO SAY AT ALL TIMES, SO THE PUBLIC IS MISLEAD TO BELIEVING THE LIES. IT WORKS, THIS IS WHY ITS CRITICAL TO BE A CRITICAL THINKER. PEOPLE LIE ALL TIME EVERYDAY WITHIN FAMILIES AND JOBS, THEY ARE NEVER HONEST WITH THEMSELVES OR THE PEOPLE THEY LIVE WITH. ACTIONS ALWAYS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS. I REALIZE THERE ARE THOSE HUMANS WHO ARE CLUELESS AND MIMICK OTHER WORDS AND ACTIONS FROM THOSE PEOPLE WHO HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THEY'RE TALKING ABOUT. AVOID BEING ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE. DO YOUR OWN RESEARCH, THINK OUTSIDE THE BOX.

LET ME TELL YOU A STORY OF A YOUNG GIRL WHO MEETS A YOUNG MAN THAT HAS MONEY. HOW HE EARNED HIS MONEY DOESN'T MATTER. AS SHE SHARED WITH HIM ABOUT HER UPBRINGING, HE CRITIZED HER AND EXPRESSED SHE LIVED IN THE GHETTO, SHE WAS HURT DEEPLY. IT'S ONLY HIS PERCEPTION BECAUSE SHE DIDN'T LIVE ON SAME SIDE OF TOWN HE DID. PEOPLE ARE JUDGED ACCORDING TO THEIR CHARACTER OF WHERE THEY LIVE, HOW MUCH MONEY THEY HAVE AND THEIR FAMILY BACKGROUND. NONE OF THIS HAS ANTYHING TO DO WITH INTEGRITY OR SELF WORTH OR WHO SHE IS AS A WOMAN, OR WHO SHE WILL BECOME. HIS IGNORANCE OF MEASURING PEOPLE AND THE WORLD HE LIVES IS GHETTO MENTALITY WITH NO TRUE UNDERSTANDING OF WHAT MATTERS MOST BETWEEN TWO PEOPLE OR WHAT SHOULD MATTER BETWEEN A MAN AND A WOMAN. THIS STORY GAVE A MESSAGE HE IS NOT INTERESTED IN WHO SHE ACTUALLY IS. IGNORANCE COMES IN ALL FORMS ESPECIALLY WITH THOSE WHO HAVE MONEY. THEY HAVE LEARNED NOTHING OF WHO THEY ARE, BECAUSE RICH PEOPLE MEASURE WHAT THEY THINK IS GOOD TO HOW MUCH MONEY THEY HAVE INSTEAD OF HUMAN INTEGRITY.

THE SUN CARD - THE SUN IS A CELEBRATION OF THE SELF AND THE SUCCESS OF BEING FULLY AND COMPLETELY YOUR AUTHENTIC SELF. THE WEIRD LESSON IS IF WE RELEASE OUR FEARS, BEING OURSELVES IS THE EASIEST THING IN THE WORLD. I'VE COME INTO REALSING MY FEARS NOW AT THE AGE OF 57. AS I LOOKED AT MYSELF FROM A PHOTO, SEVERAL YEARS AGO, I SOON REALIZED I DIDN'T APPEAR AS CONFIDENT AND I HAD TO QUESTION WHY? ONCE I BEGAN TO UNDERSTAND A FEW THINGS ABOUT MYSELF IS WHEN I KNEW ITS TIME TO LET IT GO. HOLDING ON TO CERTAIN EMOTIONS IS EGO AND FALSE PRIDE. ITS THE BEAUTY OF GETTING OLDER AND REALIZING I DON'T CARE WHAT PEOPLE THINK OF ME BECAUSE IF MY ENERGY BOTHERS THEM, THEN ITS THEY WHO NEED TO TAKE A LOOK AT THEMSELF. MOST PEOPLE HAVE TRIED HARD TO MAKE ME FEEL BAD FOR WHO I AM ALL MY LIFE, BECAUSE OF THEIR OWN INSECURITIES BUT ITS NOT ME AS MUCH AS IT IS THEM. OFCOURSE I COULD USE SOME REFINING THAT IS TRUE FOR ALL OF US, HOWEVER THIS IS MY PATH, ITS MY LIFE (LIKE ALICE) AND I AM RESPONSIBLE FOR MAKING IT THE BEST I CAN OF BEING WHO I AM AND NOTHING LESS. SO MANY PEOPLE WORK HARD TRYING TO EARN RECOGNITION FOR A FALSE SELF AT THE EXPENSE OF THEIR AUTHENITIC SELF. I BELIEVE IN THE END YOU WILL ONLY END UP HATING AND HURTING YOURSELF FROM THE LIES YOU TELL YOURSELF. NOW IT'S TIME TO SEE THE TRUTH. PEOPLE AND POLITICS ARE DAMAGING THE WORLD WE LIVE IN WITH SOCIAL MEDIA AND A FALSE PRETENSE OF THOSE WHO PORTRAY A FALSE NARRATIVE OF WHO THEY THINK THEY SHOULD BE. I'VE RELEASED MANY OF MY FEARS BUT EVERYDAY ITS A WORKING PROGRESS AND I CAN SEE MYSELF CLEARLY OF WHO I AM WITH A GREATER ENERGY OF SELF LOVE. I NEED NO APPROVAL AND EITHER DO YOU. WHEN YOU FEEL THE SUN YOU WILL FEEL JOY, SUCCESS AND OPTIMISM FROM WITHIN. FIRST RECOGNIZE YOUR FEARS AND WORK AT RELASING THEM ONE BY ONE. THOSE FEARS CAN HIDE DEEP WITHIN YOU AND SOMETIMES HAVE A CONNECTION TO OTHERS THAT ARE NEGATIVE. HAVE COURAGE AND BE WILLING TO CREATE THE CHANGE WHICH IS NEEDED TO CUT THE NEGATIVE MEMORIES LOOSE SO YOU CAN FEEL THE SUN UPON YOUR FACE AND WITHIN YOUR SOUL.

TWO OF CUPS CARD - DURING A MAD TEA PARTY THE HATTER AND THE HARE BICKER LIKE AN OLD MARRIED COUPLE. THE TEA PARTY IS AT THE MARCH HARES HOME AND THE HATTER IS UNDER PUNISHMENT BY TIME FROM THE QUEEN AND FOR HATTER ITS ALWAYS TEA TIME (6:00 P.M). THESE TWO ARE LIKE MESSANGERS "ONE TO COME AND ONE TO GO" HOW THESE TWO CAN SURVIVE A RELATIONSHIP IN WONDERLAND WE DON'T KNOW. THIS CARD MARKS THE BEGINNING OF A POTIENTAL INTENSE AND LONG TERM RELATIONSHIP WHICH COULD CONSIST OF ANY TYPE OF RELATIONSHIP NOT JUST ROMANTIC. KEEP IN MIND THE WORD IS "POTIENTAL" THAT IS THE MESSAGE IT DOESN'T MEAN IT WILL BLOSSOM. IF YOU'VE EVER MET SOMEONE AND YOU CLICKED RIGHT OFF YOU WILL UNDERSTAND THE CARD, BUT SOMETIMES THAT CLICK IS AN ILLUSION AND NOT BASED IN REALITY BECAUSE WE ARE CLICKING WITH ONLY EMOTIONS AND NOT USING LOGIC FROM PAST EXPERIENCES. ITS ONLY UNTIL MY EYES WERE WIDE OPEN FROM A CRUDE REMARK ATTACKING ME IS WHEN I TURNED INTO THE DEVIL OF TIME. BEING A CAPRICORN AND LINKED TO SATURN MY ENERGY TURNED FIERCE WITH COLD, SHARP ATTACKS AT THIS LOSER WHO WAS DESPERATELY SEEKING LOVE BECAUSE HE LACKED WITHIN HIMSELF. I ALMOST FELL FOR IT BUT THE SIGNS WERE IN MY FACE WHICH I COULD NO LONGER IGNORE. HIS DISRESPECTFUL WAY OF SPEAKING, EMOTIONAL DESPERATION, IGNORANCE AND STUPIDTY, PLAYING GAMES WITH ME ABOUT HIS FEMALE NEIGHBOR BECAUSE HE IS A MALE SEEKING FEMALE ATTENTION LIKE A CHILD SEEKS LOVE FROM HIS MOTHER. AFTER LISTENING TO HIS PAST OF DRUG PROBLEMS AND HEARING HIS PATHETIC BEHAVIOR IN PLAYING THE VICTIM FROM A 20 YEAR OLD POST RELATIONSHIP HE REFUSED TO GET OVER AND MOVE ON FROM HIS DRUG ADDICTED EX-GF. I WAS READY TO KILL THIS MOTHER FUCKER, BUT INSTEAD I ATTACKED HIM BACK, CUT HIM LOOSE AND WALKED AWAY.